Heyhey.

What's that word? Hmm... It's at the tip of my tongue. Eh. It's a feeling. 'I want to be around everyone I love, but, I want to be alone with everyone.' I hope I explained it correctly. If you find out, leave me a tag(: Anyway. The following song is one of my favourites. Read the lyrics. I means a lot to me.

I'll Try(Peter Pan)
I am not a child now
I can take care of myself
I mustn't let them down now
Mustn't let them see me cry
I'm fine, I'm fine

I'm too tired to listen
I'm too old to believe
All these childish stories
There is no such thing as faith
And trust and pixie dust

I try
But it's so hard to believe
I try
But I can't see what you see
I try, I try, I try...

My whole world is changing
I don't know where to turn
I can't leave you waiting
But I can't stay and watch this city burn
Watch it burn

'Cause I try
But it's so hard to believe
I try
But I can't see where you see
I try, I try
I try and try to understand
The distance in between
The love I feel and the things I fear
And every single dream

I can finally see it
Now I have to believe
All those precious stories
All the world is made of...Faith, and trust... and pixie dust
So, I'll try
Because I finally believe
I'll try, cuz I can see what you see
I'll try, I'll try
I'll try...To fly
-End of song-

I realise that sometimes I have to let go. Smile in the times of thunderstorms, and just walk away. No, I'm not emo. I just wonder why I'm the way I am. So... So... Regretful. I guess I have to make wiser choices in the future, and hope for the best. (And of course, in sub-concious mind, expect, and prepare for the worst.) So what's that word? A feeling. A state of mind? Let's ponder through the treacherous life of human beings and social discrimination.

Much needing extreme encouragement,
Esther.